Wow. I logged onto DA today for the first time in a while and it's this AJAX based, kick ass web app now. When the fuck did this happen? It's pretty amazing. I still haven't explored very far yet, but it looks and feels a lot better. I LOVE WEB 2.0!

It has recently occurred to me that the things I have held in such high regard may in fact be some of the least important things in my life. If I need money, (and I always do), I worry about it until I either figure out a way to get some, or something more important comes along. This is an extremely stressful cycle. If only I could live the ascetic life. I want to free myself from all desire and needless attachment. Not all ties mind you. I don't know where I'd be without Miha. I love her so much it hurts.

A cold and wet November dawn
And there are no barking sparrows
Just emptiness to dwell upon.

I fell into a winter slide
And ended up the kind of kid who goes down chutes too narrow
Just eking out my measly pies.

The Shins are probably the best musical thing that has ever happened to me. I feel like their songs were written just for me. Thanks.

Man this journal thing has just turned into a forum for me to bitch. I guess the negative is the only thing I feel like writing about. Well, down from my soapbox I go.

This Deviant no longer cares.

Slowly but surely all that was once interesting and fun loses it's appeal. I used to eagerly anticipate getting off of work and spending my entire night destroying my eyesight in front of this wonderful glowing box. Now this glowing box is my work. It's feels like it's become the crutch of my entire existence. Oh how I long to be outside for more than an hour at a time.

I've been feeling very pensive lately. The problems of others such as friends and family haven't been getting to me the way they used to. I just keep getting lost in these tangents of abstract thought. My troubled head was up until 3 am last night devising a system for human flight based on an experience I had in a lucid dream. I more than likely won't ever have a dream that cool again therefore the entire system I spent so much time overanalysing is completely worthless. Who knows. I guess to be a thinker is better than being ignorant.

The time I've spent on DA has been made pleasant because of the others who share their thoughts with me. Be them + or -, they help. There are a select few who have really been great and made me keep coming back even when I had lost all hope in this community. They are;






There are others who are also great but these guys never fail at making a guy feel good. Thanks guys.

Inserted homoginized words that no one will read. Copied from someone else unknowingly. My thoughts are not ubiquitous. My thoughts are my own. If I could write so you could understand, I would.